I am so tired of feeling self concious. Sometimes I don’t even feel like i should even be around friends because afterwards i feel awful. I’m always the different one and the one thats left out. I haven’t gone out and dated much. Everyone has someone at least and i miss having that. I’m tired of feeling alone. I’m so afraid that i will never find the right person…i really don’t feel like i ever will. It’s such an empty feeling and i honestly fear of being alone forever. I feel ashamed of myself sometimes when i shouldnt be. Everyone tells me how great of a person i am…but if i am so great then why am i alone? Sometimes i feel like i have to pretend just to fit in. I preach so much about relationships…but me, this “good person” who tries to do the right thing is alone. While so many people and friends who can’t even handle their own relationships are in one. I would give anything to have a true decent relationship. I wish i was someone’s idea of perfect…someone who would want to be with me.
I don’t know why this bothers me so much now. I’m just tired of feeling self concious…i was never like this before ):
i made a new friend on the plane
this us actin crazy
smooches to u hataz
ewwww y’all ugly
dis us sleep
of course we cute